Friday, November 8, 2019

You never know when to expect the worse in life


The month of Oct was very challenging how much can a person take. It started off with Hondo getting pancreatitis, along with a huge vet bill . Then Marverick was bit by what we think a spider. Two nights in the hospital and an other huge vet bill. Then on Oct 7th I went to the clinic because I had a headache not a normal headache. When they took me back to the room they took my blood pressure three times thinking the machine was broke. As it was reading 198/110,  The doctor came in and said I am calling an ambulance. I could not allow this as I had a puppy in the car and I drove myself. As she was insisting I said I will sign what ever you need me to but I am taking my puppy home and calling my husband to take me Which is what I did. So off to the hospital we go and I hate hospitals, doctors because for some reason it is what it is. Get to the hospital and the blood pressure it is still very high and I figured they would give me something for it and send me home, Mean while the youngest calls and says she is stranded on the side of the road so I tell my husband to go and help her I will be fine. So off he goes then they come and say doctor ordered a cat scan and we are here to take you for that okay I go I didn't really have a choice. So they do the cat scan and wheel me back to my room while still trying to get the pressure down. Doctor comes in and says we are going to send you across the river to a hospital that handles head problems okay I am fine with that. So as I wait for the what I thought was the paperwork the doctor comes back in and states you bleeding in your brain. Now that is something you try and wrap your head around, He also states now we need to send you to Peoria  by ambulance I say no that is okay my husband can drive me. I brain is not registering the severity of this issue. Nurse comes in and says change of plans we are life fighting  you to the Peoria. Now still not registering I ask is that really necessary, they state yes we don't want you  to ride in an ambulance for 1.5 hours where the medic-vac takes 30 minutes. So in the air, boy was that fun for the tune of maybe if lucky it will only be 25,000.00 but it could be more. To spend four glorious days in the ICU on the critical list. Did I tell you all my hatred for doctors. Can not wait to see that bill. Another cat-scan this time with dye. and a anagram no one bothered to tell me if the bleeding had not stopped I would have a new hairdo. I told my husband not to bother my children with this as they have jobs and school and family is stationed in Germany. NO he doesn't listen I wake up to my oldest child, my mother in law and my husband was going to get the youngest from Western University. Oh and the Red Cross is sending my oldest son and his family from Germany. it appears I had 2 brain bleeds and what they think was a mini stroke although the bleeds were not consistent with a stroke. 

So that was the start, because we like to live and my kids always need things. I am not complaining I will always take care of them. I went back to work  the following Monday, My Son arrived that Friday after I left the hospital. For what seems like years I had all my children under one roof and I can not tell you that feeling. So prior to all this I had entered a dog show with just one dog. I had already requested the time off and now My son and his wife were here. You know I have done crazier things but we went  I didn't lift anything or do any walking as my good friends were park next to us and gave us use of their Polaris all weekend. I knew that i I could not show the dog either my husband or my son would or a number of other people. It was an amazing weekend to spend with my son and his wife one I have to hang on to for it will be five more years before they are on thi
s soil again. Besides my dog must have knew as he was on his best behavior at times I was not sure I had the right dog.  

So lets move forward people look at me like I am a miracle no not one of those. I refuse to believe that I had a foot in the grave. Can I say I am out of the woods nope, blood pressure is still high, changed medicine 3 x for far, My short term memory seems to be effective and my eyes sight seems so off. I still have headaches and my ears ring. And I need to replace my right hip as it is getting worse and they took those Meds away. Can't do the hip as can't afford nor do I have any more time off work. But I am going to live every day to the fullest. I refuse to believe I was at deaths door. Just need to find a disguise and rob a bank to pay these medical bills as the insurance isn't going to cover everything nor will it cover the Helicopter.     
New motto don't sweat the small things other people have it worse.